Reactions to porn vary from women to women
- It looked dirty
“Well, it looked dirty and seemed like they were gymnasts. I didn’t like it too much,” says Anamika. 2. It was more of an assault to my senses “I saw it in an internet café when I went there to take print-outs,” says 24 year old Mohona. “The page was taking time to load so I was searching the contents downloaded. I clicked on a video. I think my reaction was that of mortification that someone would find out that I watched it. I remember feeling guilty at home. Looking at my mom and wondering if she knew! First time porn did not make me curious or horny. It was more of an assault to my senses. Like something that makes you say, “See this is why curiosity is not good! Maybe that’s why I still don’t like watching porn. I’d rather read.”
I was cringing “I saw it in a clip that my then boyfriend sent me. I was 18,” shares 24 year old Srestha. “I did not know how it worked; I just knew kissing. Two people, really naked were going for it like wolves. Plus it was hard-core. In my head, I had imagined it to be nice and chill. Also, oral sex was an alien concept to me. And I was totally freaked out by someone totally devouring someone else’s private parts. For me, it was the place you poop or pee from and I was grossed out.”
It was pretty adventurous “I watched porn for the first time, I think, when I was in the sixth or seventh standard,” shares 28 year old Sonali. “It was pretty adventurous then because it felt like breaking a rule and doing something wrong. Maa baa jene jaoar bhoy chilo (I was scared mom and dad would find out about it). I watched it with my friends, at home.”
It was ridiculous “I ended up laughing because it looked so ridiculous,” shares 22 year old Debkanya.
I was scared, excited and stimulated “I was scared, excited and stimulated and when they showed anal sex I was like Yikes!” shares 32 year old Bhuvana.
I couldn’t comprehend it “I watched it when a window just popped up on my browser. It had a loop video of straight sex, focussed just on the genitalia. When I shared it with my friends, they were shocked as hell. We were in the seventh standard, just before the final exams,” shares 27 year old Tamizh.
I felt pukish “I was forced to watch it when I was in the twelfth standard because “Emaa…akhono porn dekhishni konodin?” (“Haww…you have never watched porn?”), shares 30 year old Matty.
